Monday, June 27, 2016

April-May-June 2016

Oh wow, I knew it had been awhile since I had written here, but didn't realize it was that long!

I am not going to get too detailed, just a quick update.

Life keeps going on.

I finished my first semester of online college courses through Huntington University! I ended up with a surprising all A's! I have no idea what God is going to do with this or why His favor is resting so fully upon this adventure... Exciting to see what happens!

No lie, its one assignment at a time. Many times, I have no idea what I am going to write. Usually its all just from the hip, from life experience, mixed with the reading assignments, somehow it comes out impressing the teachers... Go God!

Leah finished her first year at HU also, she loves it! I believe she has finally chosen a major of business finance and accounting. She's home for the summer working at Pizza Hut in Berne again.

James is switching jobs, going to the Sheriff Dept in the county he is already in. He is really enjoying the work and prayers for safety never stop. His wife Brookelyn decided to go back to school for her masters and become a PA, she is one amazingly smart woman... she chose my son after all! :)

Zach's still living here at home, working at a factory in Berne, figuring out life.

Lucas will be a senior next year! I am not sure I am ready to have another one become an adult, but the option of them not becoming an adult doesn't work so well for me either, so I guess I will go with it. Lucas decided not to play football this fall, so I will be a double cross country parent for him and Jadon. Should make life a tad bit easier.

Jadon will be in 7th grade next year, and is planning to run cross country. It's not easy for him to grow up without a dad. The struggle to overcome the obstacles can be made worse by living in a community where everyone else has their dad and he finds himself often without one. My dad chose to spend Father's Day weekend one-on-one with Jadon. To say this is a blessing is not even coming close to how I feel about it. Praying God keeps filling his void with His Love.

Oh Kiahna, life just isn't easy. I get asked so often how it is going. Even on her good days, life is hard for her. The world is hard to understand and confuses her. The amount of daily guidance she needs is concerning. But, she is making some great strides in overcoming some fears, accomplishing some goals. She jumped in the deep end at the pool last night at the Sunday School party! She went down a water slide TWICE last week! She let someone work on her toes and get them all cleaned up for a pedicure! All things she really was afraid to try!

As she moves into the sixth grade, her school will not change. Same classroom, same teacher, same building.  All good things for us all. She is changing therapist again, approval for the Medicaid Waiver came this spring, which should follow her through life now and provide services for her as she becomes an adult.

The next few weeks should be fun taking a few weeks off of work. We will have our annual lake week with my family and then I am hoping to take a road trip with Jadon & Kiahna... you can follow along on my Instagram if you wish!

God is really amazing. I am overwhelmed with His provision and His peace. I can't say I understand His ways. There is a struggle with emotion as we go through the seasons of a year since Jim was back in our lives and then gone again. I still feel God is saying to wait on Him. I still feel the call to pray for Jim. It is not lost on me that the world we live in is not one that we are trained to wait in. Everything around us screams fast and now! But, God has never worked that way.

Just this morning, I write again in my journal that I want the rewards of being a woman who waits on God. Who lives in a place of service and honor to Him and not to my own will or flesh. 

"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."  Isaiah 40:31
This is what I want. This is why I wait.

The enemy tells me I am wasting my life. The enemy tells me it's pointless.

God says It's to His Honor to Wait on Him. I don't want it if it doesn't come from Him.

Thanks for reading, loving and praying for us...

In His Grip,